…last year @ this time was so much harder. If it weren’t for my wonderful husband, I don’t know if I would have found a way to take care of my health and be proactive rather than ill and depressed. He’s done so much for me.

“doctor tomorrow. moving back and forth from mania to eroticism to depression to madness. like there is a terrible see-saw in my mind. for the last six days i’ve been at home. i want to stay here. at least the doldrums are predictable.

a dead squirrel on the roof outside my bathroom window. then it disappeared. i live in the dead zone.”

MamaCat Wednesday, August 03, 2005